Beloved

my grandpa will have passed away 10 years ago. Gosh I miss him.

OHHH MY GOSH.

johnnyis:

Any time an anti-theist makes the statement “if God existed He [would do | would have done] x,” they are making conjectural statements about the nature of God which must be supported with evidence. Otherwise, you can dismiss what is asserted arbitrarily. 

(via hellomynameisliv)

For real. It’s so cool. Remember how I got two hours of sleep last night? Well I was productive with that time not sleeping this morning and I have one of my paintings completely ready to be started and so that’s amazing along with a bunch of other little things done. “If His grace is an ocean, we’re all sinking.” The painting is from that line. I never plan paintings out like this. I should do that more often. Also, a friend and I are planning a trip over spring break to see Elevation Worship and to go to Winter Jam and that’s all falling into place. AND there’s a summer mission trip to Alaska that I am really interested in going on and that looks like it’s going to happen too. Basically, I didn’t think I’d get to go on either and the biggest thing that I thought would stop me from both is not in the way at all anymore! I was praying about Alaska last night after the meeting and after church and those obstacles both just fell away today. Oh my gosh. GOD IS SO FANTASTIC!! I don’t know if any of that made sense. 

And that whole change thing that I’m going through? Still going through it, but today was really easy with it. Not saying that every day will, because change is always an adjustment but I can totally do it through God. Things are looking up. I’m gonna be fine. You’re gonna be fine. Everything is gonna work out.

AND I GET TO START A NEW JOURNAL. I love starting new journals. I’m so excited.

SUCH A GOOD DAY. 

It’s 4:46 AM! Yay! This night has been.. not full of sleeping. I stayed up a little late, writing a letter to a friend, which I didn’t finish on purpose because I knew I needed to get some sleep and then I went to sleep at midnight. I woke up and thought I had been sleeping forever when in reality it was 2. I have not been able to fall asleep since. Cool. So I’m sitting in the living room with a bowl of yogurt and granola, a diet coke, with an episode of Gilmore Girls playing. I want to make sure that I don’t fall back asleep if I go into the painting studio and miss class. And I really don’t want to miss class because we’re watching The Breakfast Club and having breakfast. I’m more interested in the breakfast. I got like four visions of what to paint while not sleeping so that’s really fantastic. Really. I made sure to write them down and I think I still forgot one. And since I don’t see myself falling back asleep until after I work the noon lap shift today and before I teach lessons tonight, I might as well stay awake. AND THAT WAY! I can drive when I go into the studio in a bit so I won’t have to walk to class in the snow, and walk to work in the snow, and I can leave my work stuff in my car and not have to walk back to get it, and I won’t have to walk back here after work. That’s a lot of not walking. Done deal. Going into the studio after this episode. And I can be as loud as I want because there won’t be a class in there. I always get in trouble for being too loud. Story of my life. Do you think the shower will wake my roomies in about half an hour? Hmm. I’ll work that one out. I wonder how many Diet Cokes I will have today! And if I will have any energy for the little ones I teach at lessons. Hope so. They’re cute. Praying that those two hours of sleep were anointed and for super energy today! Have a good day! 

And it’s kind of painful. There is something that I need to change. So here we go.